The One & Only 
Happy Birthday, Loga
kays. post agn.
went to run late at night.
not in the happy mood now D:
i cried while i run.
and noone cares.
I suddenly think of him again.
He hurt me very deeply in my heart,
and until now,
I still cant forget about it.
No scar is left,
Cause the wound is still unhealed.
And because of you,
Many quotes came out of my mind.
Heartbreak, dreams, love.
This is what I always do,
Whenever I'm sad....
I write quotes and poems.
I listen to songs,
Love songs.
I cry when I think,
I cry when I listen,
I cry when I write...
Why am I doing this to myself?
Because of you?
Is it worth it?
Sometimes,
I thought we should clear things up with each other,
i want to ask you who you love now,
Do you still love me?
Or did you love someone else already.
Or your love for me isnt true at all.
When I broke up with you,
My kors were always teasing me.
Saying: "We thought you say you two will last for at least this month?"
Yes, they dont now.
Yet Im still thinkin about it.
Getting emo because of you.
Cutting myself, because of you.
It has been 16 days.
And Im still thinking about it.
I didnt want to answer you at first,
But I thought there werent any harm telling you,
So I admit, I still have feelings for him.
After I came bak from my run,
And I was thinking about you again.
I tried to stop thinking about you,
And I closed my eye to rest.
But when I closed my eyes,
I see the messages you sent to me.
Are the things you said to me true?
I dont know why,
Why am I so dumb,
So dumb to be taken in,
Taken in by your words.
And know how deeply you have hurt me inside.
You caused me and chris to break up.
And so, I agreed to try out with you.
And I was vry sincere about it.
But in the end,
This is what you did to me.
I feel so terrible when everything happened.
Now, we aint talking to each other.
So what if I have patched back with chris?
Can it heal my wound? It cant.
Friends tell me that time will heal the wound.
But it hasnt.
I wish I could have a happy love life,
And I didnt even expect this to happen.
Why did this happen on me?
My kors' friends,
Who have crush on me,
They can say all types of sweet thing to me,
Like you did.
Dear, baby, princess, darling.
Love you.
They said all this to me too.
But I know they are sincere about it,
And its from deep inside their heart.
How about you?
Is it from deep within your heart?
Or is it just to toy with my feelings.
You sweet talk to me.
Have I kissed any guys before?
This is what you asked me.
And you said,
Maybe you would be the first guy I ever kiss?
Its impossible now.
Very very very impossible.
So what?
What I want is that our relationship,
Could last as long as we want,
As you said.
But did it?
No it didnt.
One message and our relationship ended.
After that, I dont see any messages from you already.
Is this what I really want?
No! I want/need a guy,
Who can let me develop feelings for him,
Who can love me for who I am,
Who can give me happiness.
But did you? No you didnt.
Yes, you made me happy by messaging with me,
And I enjoyed it.
But you left me wounded,
When you decided not to continue
the relationship.
Do you know how much Im hurting inside?
Everyday, I try very hard,
Very hard not to think of you,
You and the incident that happened,
Happened in 5 days time.
It happened just so quickly,
That it strangled me.
I tried to struggle out of it,
I try to get over it,
But I just cant do it.
I really dont understand you.
It left me wounded,
Confused, sad, depressed.
♥ My L 爱 V E For You Stops @ 11:51 PM
Student Councillor
Everlasting Love♥