The One & Only 
Love is a moment that last forever.
I wonder if you still loves me.
I wonder if you really did toy with my feelings.
I wonder if your feelings for me were true.
I wonder who do you miss, written in your pm.
I wonder......
I have a lot of questions in my head.
I want to ask you.
But i dont want to do it.
I want to forget you,
But I cant.
Really, Im hurt too deeply,
By you to forget you le.
Why am I doing this to myself?
I cut myself because of you.
I was under a lot of stress,
When you broke up with me.
And I told myself to forget you,
But I just cant do it.
I told myself not to cry because of you,
But I cant do it too,
And I cry everyday.
I want to talk to you,
When I see you online on msn.
But I hesitate,
And I decided not to.
I shall not think of you anymore.
Thats what Im always tell myself.
But in the end,
Whenever I see your name,
I will think of you,
And the incident that happened.
One day, thats how long our relationship lasted.
But what did we say before that?
We will try out for one month.
One month, and it became one day.
When I ask you how long do you think our relationship will last,
You told me as long as we want it to.
And one day,
Is not as long as I want it to last.
And I dont think thats how long you want it to last too.
Unless you are really toying with my feelings.
I wished it could last for at least four months,
If we could really get along.
But its all just my wishful thinking.
When you talked to me on msn,
Just to ask for McDelivery number,
I was thinking: "Is that all you want to ask?"
"Why are you asking me, instead of someone else?"
And many other questions.
When you called me to ask me for Mr Tan's number,
I was thinking: "Dont you have his number? I gave you before."
"Why did you ask me instead of Shao Xuan?"
And also, many other questions.
Why are you asking me?
I want to find chance to talk to you.
But I dont know why,
But I just dont want to talk to you.
You hurt me really too deeply.
The wound inside my heart,
Is still unhealed.
Even if it is healed,
It would leave a very big scar there.
I cut myself,
Not a deep cut,
A cut that wouldnt kill me,
Cause my kors stopped me in time.
If they didnt,
I guess I wouldnt be in this world now already.
A long cut,
But a short scar was left thr.
There's a scar,
But its not obvious and as long as the cut.
Its the end of the cut which left a scar,
As it is a little deeper there.
When I just cut myself,
I try hiding the cut from my friends.
And yes, no one say it.
It was during the holidays.
If I left this world,
Would you care?
I doubt you will,
Unless your feelings for me are true.
But I guess others are right,
You are just a playboy.
Maybe a jerk?
I dont know.
I hope you arent one.
If you are one,
I really dont know what to do next.
I thought I could help you to change your attitude,
But,Im hopeless.
When you decided to break up with me,
I was scolding myself,
For being so dumb,
To agree to stead with you,
And the next day,
You "dumped" me.
And being taken in by you.
Some people asked me not to give you a chance,
Cause you are a playboy.
But I was taken in by you,
I didnt heed their advice,
I thought you were true to me.
But I regretted my choice.
Why did this happen?
Why was I so dumb?
Being taken in by you.
I should have heed their advice.
And I didnt,
It caused me to be hurt so badly.
I really want to know,
Is it worth it crying because of you?
Is it worth it being unhappy because of you?
I have cried my tears dry.
What am I to you?
A girl you really love?
Or a girl who you want to toy her feelings?
Which one am I?
I thought your feelings for me will last long.
But I was really very very very wrong.
All the messages you sent to me,
Made me think you would be true to me,
And love me truely.
Maybe I should really forget you,
But can I do it?
I cant do it, even if I want to.
Im forcing myself not to think of you.
Im forcing myself not to cry.
One day, I guess,
I will force myself to death.
I really dont know what will happen.
I wish you would see all this,
I wish to tell you all this,
But I have no courage,
And I guess you wouldnt come to my blog.
You know my blog link,
But I know you wouldnt come.
Stress, troubles and everything.
It would lead to depression.
I dont want it to happen.
I wish I wouldnt see you in school,
But I would.
Especially during SL exco meeting.
I may just be facing you,
For the wole meeting.
Maybe I should just not go for meetings,
If I know you will be there.
I dont want to think about it anymore.
I hope I would get over it soon.
someone ask me if you stayed in SL is it because of me.
I said I dont think so.
Cause would you ever do that?
I doubt so.
Why am I saying all this again?
I told myself not to think of all this things,
And also not to talk about it.
But in the end,
Im doing it right now.
Through the phone with chris,
And also in my blog.
Why cant I get over you?
I realise,
My love life is so complicated now.
Chris, *HIM*, you.
Im not saying your name out,
I dont want to reveal the person,
And let people think badly of you.
But why am I doing this?
I really dont know.
♥ My L 爱 V E For You Stops @ 2:00 AM
Student Councillor
Everlasting Love♥