The One & Only 
i have decided to give up on my love life.
kah fai kor, sry,
i broke th rules for th challenge...
But reali, im feeling vry confused.
U can dun tok to me for all u wan.
u said it urself,
tat if i break an rule,
u wont tok to me.
but i cant possibly hide everything in my heart.
im feeling vry vry vry bad inside nw.
wats happening to th world manzx?
wats happening?!?!?!
i need a listening ear now.
Khadijah, u are th only one i can tok to now.
u knw most of th things.
but... i reali reali am vry sad now...
break, stead, break, stead?
wats w me now?
i feeel as if im a playgal now?
boys, pls dun do this to me...
this isnt th real me!
it isnt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i reali wanna give up on my love life alrd.
who can help me?
i realireali dunno.
giving up on my studies,
giving up on my love life,
giving up my whole life... hais...
ppl, pls dun force me to do it agn...
i tot all my sorrows can be over,
but saying it all out,
and crying all out.
but.. it didnt help.
everything is still in me...
Do u all knw how i feel now?
Do u knw?
why is my life getting more and more difficult?
ppl say: "ur life will be much easier if u overcome everything."
but how do i overcome everything?
even if i overcome it,
more sorrows will come to me.
yes, only i can help myself.
but i cant...
wat can i do? nth!
wats in my heart and mind now?
sorrows, sadness, all my unhappiness,
whr did all my happiness go to?
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The One & Only
hiie ppl...
kkays. here to post (obviously..)
morning, i shld say afternoon,
woke up at 12pm.
ytd slp quite late...
at abt 3plus? lols.
actually i can slp longer de.
but my mum woke me up D:
thn msg-ed afiq...
thn after tat used com.
and msg w dwight.
so damn bored.
chatted on msn.
thn at pizza for lunch.
after tat was on phone w riyaas and khadijah.
we talked abt someone and someone.
thn riyaas hang up,
he went to buy stuffs.
so me and khadijah chatted.
and we talked abt someone.
dun bother to ask me who is th someone.
i wont tell de.
idc who are u,
i wont tell u....
thn after tat continued to chat on msn.
currently smsing w dwight.
and chatting w no one on msn. D:
im super bored lah... sianzx.
and guess wat my mum ask me do...
play beach volleyball and learn modern dance...
i was lyk wth? wan me go learn?
and she is lyk serious abt it?
kkays update on my timetable.
second week of holiday (8 to 14 Jun 09)
mon, 8 Jun 09, class outing at mdm thilagam hse (10.15pm meet)
wed, 10 Jun 09, YAC meeting (2pm)
one of th days going library w Kah Fai kor.
third week of holiday (15 to 21 Jun 09)
tue, 16 Jun 09, CCA chalet/BBQ (dunno time yet)
forth week of holiday (22 to 28 Jun 09)
fri, 26 Jun 09, SL exco meeting? (9am)
tats all bah i guess. nth else le.
one of th days during hol,
im gonna meet up w my pri sch frenz.
long time no meet them liao le. hais.
i miss them D: lols.
kkays. no more craps.
byes. :D
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The One & Only
continue here bahs.
after tat, whn they come bak,
sx called and say dwight kor herad mr tan's alarm. -.-"
after a while,
sx called agn,
and ask us go 1T1 thr agn.
we went thr and ate lah.
after tat, eat le,
they say wan go bak le.
so we went bak bunk loh.
me and khadi put our tables on th table,
and thn slp, at abt 4.10am.
at ab 4.30pm,
both of us moved to the floor and slp.
lazy open up slping bag,
so used it as pillow...
at abt 6am, they came and wake us up.
thn i blur blur de...
dunno wats happening around me..
sat on floor and riyaas came.
and thn he disturb me.
he used th roller blades th wheels,
roll on my leg...
and dunno said wat thingy loh.
thn after tat,
pack my stuffs,
and thn went canteen...
gathered.
i nvr eat breakfast.
filled up some forms for personal particulars thingy.
went bak to class,
and thn went to hall,
for attendance taking.
whn walking bak to class,
mr tan called me,
and ask me whr are th forms.
i say w dwight, riyass, marshall.
so he ask me go down canteen get from them..
so i ran down loh.
took le, went to his locker put.
thn went bak to class.
th cher gay loh.
thn wrote poems.
went for recess,
came bak and poems agn...
sms-ed dwight kor th whole while.
thn after tat,
whn class end,
got mt oral.
thn went for oral,
sms-ed w riyaas.
thn after tat end liao,
went home.
and thn i fell aslp at abt 6plus.
woke up at 8plus.
and thn sms-ed w dwight kor.
kkays, tats all for ytd.
today.................
morning took bus to sch.
thn did history wb.
sms-ed w dwight kor at 9plus.
so jealous of him leh..
still can lie on th bed.
while i in sch liao le... D:
thn after dismissed,
went to meet mr lam.
thn tok until 1pm.
and he gave me and rebecca 15min for lunch.
thn go yac.
during yac,
me, afiq, yusnah, afiqah practiced skit.
thn x-country ppl was training.
thn we keepon laughing.
after th training,
went home loh.
kkays. tats all. byes.
reply of tags...
Wanxin: hahas. ty. :)
zhenfong: hahas. thx for ur tag! :D hahas. will try to tag u more often :)
Emilia: lols...
iivy: hahas. tyty. :D
russ: hahas. hihi. :D thx for ur tag anws. :D
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The One & Only
hello!!!!!!!!!!
suppose to be slping now,
but obviously im not...
our camp bunks are 3e2 and 3e4...
boys at 3e2, gals at 3e4.
everyone slping now le.
except for Amanda Lim, Riyaas,
Marshall kor, Shao Xuan, Dwight kor,
and khadijah. obviously got me also lah.
if not i wont be posting here le.
dwight, marshall kor, shao xuan,
went mac to buy food bak for us :D
i nvr eat dinner... so hungry now... D:
morning, came sch,
thn went to PE storeroom at 7plus,
go put camp bag.
thn went for briefing...
went fort canning,
thn labrador park.
was sms-ing w dwight kor...
thn came bak sch,
went for lunch at KFC.
thn saw dwight kor and shao xuan,
whn we walking thr.
ask me where's emmanuel.
so i said idk and idc.
came bak sch for camp after tat.
i was running around. D:
so tired leh.
and riyaas ask me go home take DVDs.
so i went bak loh.
they provide me taxi fare :D
took taxi home and bak to sch. :D
thn went to field play games.
they all wet de.
thn wan wet me and rebecca.
but we holding th discs. so cnt wet us :P
thn we went to riyaas thr.
and thn mandy pull rebecca.
and rebecca pull me.
i ask her let go first,
coz i wan pass money to riyaas.
thn nidda ask so long thn she let go sia...
thn in th end i still got wet.
stupid dwight kor.
he at first wan wet me.
but thn he splash th water,
and missed me. :D
thn i was lyk laughing. hahahahhahahs!
his aiming fail loh...
thn he keep purposely wanna wet me..
dunno how many times loh.
and i keep screaming at him...
after tat, play one round le,
thn i was half wet bahs.
but cnt continue play after tat.
idk why, suddenly vomitted. -.-" D:
so nvr play loh.
mandy also nvr play after tat.
was suppose to clean up th place.
thn dwight say: "all exco come and help clean up."
thn i look at him.
thn he say: "rachel, you can go first."
in th end, left khadijah there.
emmanuel and rebecca walked away...
went to bath.
and i was th last to go bath.
and last to finish... D:
thn went to put bags at bunks.
thn played games in 3e2 classroom.
thn went canteen assemble.
thn played bing bang bong. :D
so damn fun one kay.
some ppl vry chi dun.
and then got one their reaction is slow motion de...
thn went out of sch to eat.
went S-11, near wm thr.
thn me, rebecca, emmanuel dun wan eat.
so went wm to buy things for tmr breakfast.
and our exco private party. lols
thn went LT to assemble,
tok tok a lot w th sec 1 gals.
we gossipping loh. :D
thn after tat,
when movie time,
th exco all go out have th party at canteen.
have music, drinks, food.
nvr on th lights :D
chatted w someone and someone.
talked abt someone.
okays. dun bother to find out who are they lah.
if u knw, thn u knw.
if u dunno, dun ask so much. :D
thn walked all around th first floor,
with riyaas and khadijah,
talking abt someone.
thn went to LT,
and continued talking abt someone.
and th 3 of us got goosebumps. lols.
dun ask abt it manzx.
thn went parade square.
me and khadijah went only.
thn sat at the parade square slack.
tok abt someone.
thn went to LT tell everyone wat time report tmr.
after tat whn me and khadi came out,
venice, vanessa, anna, dorothea tagged along.
they say they wanna follow us. :D
thn we lie in th middle of th parade square.
dwight keep wanna take my tic tac D:
thn after tat, at abt 12.30am,
sx ask th sec 1 gals go bak.
thn after tat left,
me, khadi, dwight, sx.
thn sit thr tok tok.
thn i sian liao le,
so i lie on th floor.
and thn they go say i tired -.-"
so i say i not tired loh.
sx ask khadi go up ask th sec 1s slp.
coz they vry noisy thn dun wan slp.
thn he ownself MIA...
so left w me and dwight kor thr.
and th sec one gals go tink rot...
they dunno tell khadi wat thing loh.
thn sx came bak and ask dwight go up help khadi.
so left w me & sx.
mr tan came and ask me go slp.
thn i say i not tired.
after tat he say as long as i dun fall aslp during lesson can le.
so i say ok loh.
sx go ask me slp in th parade square first.
and he will wake me up ltr.
thn i was lyk wth?
after tat they came down loh.
i cnt stand it le,
so i say: "fine. i go ask them slp."
thn i walk as if im drunk?
khadi went w me.
and asked them to settle down.
went to roam around sch after tat.
got me, khadi, calvin ho, dwight kor, marshall kor, sx, riyaas, amanda lim.
thn at LT thr,
mr tan ask me, khadi, calvin ho go slp.
went to bunk for a while first loh.
me and khadi no slp.
calvin ho slp liao le.
thn we went to find them outside 1T1 classroom.
thn tok tok thr.
they all say me and khadi emo.
coz wevry quiet thn playing w th torch light.
thn they say wan go mac buy food.
thn whn they walk away,
me and khadi stil sitting thr.
thn dwight kor go tap my head,
and thn ask us go.
take money and ask them help us buy.
and here i am using com :D
kkays. TO BE CONTINUED. :D
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The One & Only
took attendance at parade square today.
math (1 hour)
continue th chap 8...
draw graphs.
and i was blur blur de.
reali nid ppl's help le...
someone help me! lols.
eng (1 hour)
did report writing ourselves =.
thn free time after tat.
i was talking and doing my own stuffs.
i can also use hp sia. lols.
recess (30 min)
rebecca, wx, khaliesa wan play black and white,
just to see who go put cups.
thn i say they vry lame..
so i took th cups and went to put.
kenna poke by wanxin....
thn went toilet,
reply msgs,
and i poked wanxin bak... :D
history (1 hour)
we greet mdm geetha,
and she say she chnaged title le.
now is empress geetha.
so we nidda greet her agn.
some ppl late for class.
and our class only got 24 ppl in total.
th rest go SMO le...
wrote our target and expections,
for history dis year.
i was like smsing during her period...
did finish chap one...
and got hw sia... T.T
Sci (1 hour)
went LT...
mr heng teach loh.
and i was simply blur also.
nid ppl help also!
someone from sec 3? help?
lols... mr heng hold us bak sia.
thn after tat, went wm.
go pastamania eat.
was with khadijah, fatin, iffah.
thn dwight and shao xuan came after tat lah.
but they went somewhr else.
after eat le,
went B1 toilet,
and thn shao xuan ask whr we going.
coz he say meet at pasta mania mah.
thn we say going toilet.
and thn he keep huh huh huh.
so iffah and fatin say: "we going toilet. wanna follow?"
went to pasta mania after tat.
thn mr tan was thr le.
went burger king for meeting.
at 2.45pm lyk tat,
wanxin came.
so i left loh.
went to 5th floor,
changed clothes and thn went but movie ticket.
watched night at the musuem 2.
so damn funny lah.
went arcade to take neoprint after tat.
thn went popular,
and thn wanxin wan go shop and save.
so i followed loh.
at th first floor,
went to th converse sale.
saw some councillor excos.
eg. isaac, valerie, leonard, jeremiah.
thn went down to shop and save.
wanxin went hm after tat.
i went mac to eat.
no appetite so didnt eat much.
msg w wanxin and dwight kor. :)
thn went home after tat le.
thn shower, and im w kors now.
kkays. shall end here. byes.
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The One & Only
It’s so hard to say “I love you,” and not draw back in tears,
It’s so hard to know that you’re not there to help me face my fears.
It’s so hard to know the phone’s at reach, but I cannot hear your voice,
It’s so hard to know that this time breaking up was now my choice.
It’s so hard to see you laughing when I’m crying deep inside,
It’s so hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide.
It’s so hard to live without you, when I need you more than words,
To want to scream how much I love you but hold back and not be heard.
It’s so hard to go to sleep at night when I cannot dream of you,
It’s so hard to think that you night fall in love with someone new.
It’s so hard to not start crying when I hear your favourite song,
It’s so hard to sit and wonder, where did I go wrong?
It’s so hard to live without you, if I only would have known.
I will never love another, I would rather be alone.
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The One & Only
firstly, its someone birthday today.. :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAH FAI KOR! :D
kkays. big enough bahs. lols. :D
anws, not requested one lah. :D
dun tink everything big big also requested. :)
today had June Structured Programme.
morning, woke up at 6am. D:
thn took bus to sch. D:
met rebecca in th bus :D
and we joked around :D
thn went class,
and ppl look at me in a different way. :(
coz i cut hair. -.-"
thn wanxin came and thn called Kah Fai kor. :D
wanted to wish him happy bday. :D
but someone else ans for him. D:
sounded lyk a gal,
but it was actually his brother. -.-"
thn ms yeng came in and thn we took temp. :)
after tat, did math. :D
she took over mdm thilagam.
coz she on course mah.
math (1 hour)
did graph plotting? chap 8 lah.
at first i blur blur de.
but after tat, better le.
not tat blur anymore.
phone vibrated.
check and t was Kah Fai kor call bak...
but cnt ans.
so sry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so i decided durin recess go call him bak loh.
Eng (1 hour)
Ms purana gave us hol hw.
thn tell us do as much as we can.
she go 2e3 do functional writing w them.
me and wanxin was chatting all th way.
nvr did much.
also dunno how to do loh... so diff D:
recess (30 min)
drink th grape.
thn went toilet call bak Kah Fai kor.
coz he called me bak juz now.
used wanxin's hp to call.
coz my hp no reception.. D:
sci (1 hour)
went to LT for lesson.
Mr heng took our class.
2e1 and 2e3 combined.
eng (1 hour)
was th first to go bak class w rebecca. :D
almost forget th padlock number. D:
but in th end still managed to open. :D
thn ms purana call me and ask me who gonna help her set up.
thn i say poon or calvin ho.
and thn she say i in charge of her laptop.
after tat i put on her table and ask poon set up loh.
we did functional writing.
damn tired one can?
write two summore.
my hand wan break liao le.
one is abt class outing.
another one abt OSL thingy.
after tat, mr calvin tan came and collect our NYAA booklets.
thn we went for a short break.
me and rebecca went to our America :D
we sun tann down there. :D
at first i sit down,
th chair so hot lah.
my butt wan burn liao loh.
thn calvin yu and wesley came.
they two disturb us.
and they damn retarded.
so we become retarded w them loh.
super retarded lah.
went to hall for eng oral after tat.
sit according to register number.
and my chair got mrs tan name there de.
coz th sticker for speech day they nvr take away mah.
ms ang tested us. :D
after do liao,
went canteen find rebecca and wanxin.
thn me and rebecca went macdonalds,
while wanxin went home.
met a lotof ppl at macdonalds.
me and rebecca very siao in th loh.
go and say hiie and bye to ppl we knw thr. :D
so damn fun one loh.
went popular after tat.
and we damn retarded ther agn. :D
we are retarded :D
thn after tat, buy le thn came home loh.
thn i reach home le,
my mum say wan go wm.
thn i was lyk wth?
nvr tell me earlier loh.
make me walk all the way up,
thn ltr go down agn.
shower, change,
thn went out.
walk dao bus stop
and th bus just left mah.
thn got one taxi behind,
so we took taxi thr loh.
thn bought stuff and went home.
now im w kors :D im so bored lah D:
but we all are so hyper.
i shld not say we, but they.
i not vryvryvry hyper.
coz im vryvryvry tired...
tmr movie :D and arcade :D
kkays, shall end here bah.
byes.
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Everlasting Love♥