The One & Only 
hello people.
kays. today totally pissed and bad mood today :(
morning wanted to go sch earlier.
to practice music with rebecca first.
but cannot make it.
went to school.
went parade square for assembly.
free period during CR.
Science (2 periods).
went thru our wb.
mr gan told rennes:
"if you love gail, you shld let her go."
th whole class laughed.
coz it sounds wrong.
say until she is les like tat (sry rennes).
1 periods of history.
did essay writing test.
confirm fail le. sighs.
recess.
went general office with rebecca.
sign in for her duty.
thn after tat went the booth there.
told the others meet there.
for music practice.
in the end,
none of them turned up.
wat is this manzx.
we sat there to wait for them.
it includes wanxin, khaliesa, khadijah, marjaanaa, umaa, fowizya.
damn pissed off lah.
still wan complain.
khadijah say wat,
is her first day eating in sch.
not as if we didnt let them eat.
we gave them 5 min.
me and rebecca didnt even eat lah.
they say song too long,
want to cut song.
say cannot rmb the steps.
thn its like.
waste more time lah.
nid to think of steps again.
thn they not happy -.-"
me and rebecca say steps very easy.
dun nidda cut.
coz we sort of wasted a lot of time le.
ytd during meeting,
2 out of 8 people turned up for the meeting only.
sighs.
we dun nidda use effort to think of the steps meh?
we ownself also practice thn some to sch de leh. -.-"
mdm thilagam doing canteen duty also.
thn she say i chnage specs,
and say i did smth diff to my hair.
and i said i didnt.
i say i put down fringe only.
thn she say look nicer.
and thn she say still better clip.
later get catch by ms chua.
MT (2 periods).
talk abt 2 chaps today.
go thru worksheet.
some boliao people,
so boliao,
that they nidda go and take people's things,
and thn use permanent marker draw summore.
and say its her own property -.-"
english (2 periods)
did vocab test.
and thn teacher collect newsletter thingy from 2 grps.
rennes grp,
and khadijah's grp...
felt more pissed at tat time.
coz teacher suddenly say wan remedial,
say at 5pm...
bla bla.
thn after ttat change.
watever...-.-"
math (2 periods)
go thru ws loh.
was still pissed off.
did ws too.
after sch dismissal,
stayed in class.
wanted to do there,
but the other 2 grps there also.
how are we suppose to do?
3 grps in a class?
impossible lah. -.-"
thn i keep moving laptop here and thr -.-"
geting even more pissed off
went parade square to do.
teach them,
also so damn slow -.-"
went to market there help them buy th cap.
go there,
the cap dun have already
call them,
so long also nvr pick up.
sms, no reply -.-"
so i walk walk there.
bought the caps,
and came bak.
got gastric pain.
didnt eat and drink the whole day.
from morning until abt 4plus thn eat de.
went bak,
i sat at the side there.
they did practice.
khaliesa left.
soon after, umaa and marjaanaa,
go find teacher.
thn wanxin go.
thn khadijah go.
so left with me, rebecca, fowziya.
me and rebecca teach fowziya.
thn mr tan (co-form),
can and then see us.
we ask him help us.
so he danced with us.
thn after tat umaa and marjaanaa came.
practiced quite a lot of times.
better already.
the others... i dont know le.
sighs.
shall end here. byes.
Thou I just saw you just now.
Thou I felt awkward,
To be practicing when you are in front,
But I wasnt concentrating...
I kept staring at you.
I wanna concentrate.
I dont want to stare at you from far.
I want you to be by my side.
I kept scribbling your name,
On my fullscap pad.
I dont want to be doing this.
I did this secretly,
I want to do it openly.
I dont want to be so secretive.
I dont want my friends to be disturbing me,
Just because I scribbled your name on my fullscap pad.
I miss you a lot.
I love you.
I want to write your name,
Openly in my blog.
But I cant,
Because I dont want people to know,
I dont want you to know.
I dont want you to avoid me,
Like what happened last time.
I may be smiling on the outside,
But I'm tearing on the inside.
My wounds in my heart,
Are getting deeper and deeper.
I want to overcome my fear.
My fear of losing you as a friend,
When/If you get to know about it.
My fear of drifting apart from you.
We used to be so fine,
We used to be so close,
But now,
We are like strangers.
I dont want this to happen.
I want to tell you a lot a lot of things.
But I dont have the chance,
And I dont have the courage to also.
When I look into your eyes,
I feel lost.
I cant find my way out.
I cant find myself in your eyes too.
Because I know I'm not the one you love.
I dont want to get lost in your eyes.
You are everything to me,
But I'm nothing to you.
I tell myself to forget you.
I tell myself not to daydream about you.
I tell myself to give up on you,
cause I know its impossible between the two of us.
I know you love someone else.
Not that I think Im wasting time,
Loving you.
But...Because I know its impossbile.
Sighs...
♥ My L 爱 V E For You Stops @ 7:02 PM
Student Councillor
Everlasting Love♥